I was telling Kris the other day - it is amazing that I can love a person so thoroughly so immediately. Considering the time it took me to get to know & grow to love Kris, it's just really weird to love another human being almost immediately, without condition.
Kris listened to me and said, "You grew to love me. You grew her, to love her."
Well said.
OK, so Kris and I haven't gone to a church in a while. We keep meaning to find a church to become a part of, but can't seem to find one that we like, plus it doesn't help that we believe that going to church on Sundays doesn't make us better Christians. We also really dislike church politics. Nonetheless, I really want to find a place where I can worship and have fellowship with others, plus we definitely want to raise Alaise in a Church environment.
Alaise is 1 month old today. It's incredible. It's unbelievable. Did 1 month really go by since I gave birth? It's really difficult to comprehend. I'm afraid that I'm going to blink and next thing I know, her 18th birthday will be here. She is absolutely precious, I love her, I kiss her everywhere, I hug her, rock her, comfort her, whisper in her ears, and just adore her.
So, I thought I'd jot down a short diaper update. How's my newborn stash of cloth diapers that I purchased working out??
Well, to be completely honest, I only got my first poopy cloth diaper yesterday. I've come to realize that when you get diapers as gifts, especially the newborn ones, there's really not a great need for a newborn stash of cloth diapers. Especially when your baby's big to begin with. We used the diapers that we brought from the hospital, and went through one decent size pack of diapers, and just now started using cloth diapers. The Kissaluvs are already a wee bit small, it leaves marks on Alaise's legs. The Prorap covers are way too small already. The Thirsties seem to be holding better... I tried my hands on the prefolds today for the first time. Used Jelly Roll fold, seems to be working okay. I'll have to practice a little more. But the Snappi is great! :)
Today was my 2 week checkup with my OB. As I've mentioned before, I LOVE our OB. She's really great. She said she thought I was doing pretty good considering what happened, which was good. Anyway. While we were there, she told Kris and me a story she heard at the hospital. 5 days after we had our baby and my surgery, a lady gave birth to her 5th child, and had the same post partum hemorrhaging as me. She ended up going into get a hysterectomy, but she kept on losing tons of blood, and as if her body was giving up, nothing was clotting. They ended up bringing in trauma surgeon and a vascular surgeon to patch her up, but after 4 hours of surgery, no luck. So they couldn't even close her up - they packed her with stuff layer by layer, and ended up giving her 20 units of blood. (Which we found out that average blood volume is about 11 units of blood.)
Aftermath: Hence; that which happens after, that which follows. Has a strongly negative connotation in most contexts, implying a preceding catastrophe.
My mom is holding Alaise right now and I have a bit of time before she will be wanting food... And I wanted to take a bit of time to brag on my husband a little. From the day we spent more than 5 minutes together - when we were barely friends, I knew we fit, and I knew we would be good friends for a long long time. He took me out on a drive on the night I got my heart broken...
So last night was a doozy! I think we've hit Lacey's first "growth spurt" because she kept Ju and I up and feeding her almost ever 1 1/2 - 2 hours last night. It's amazing how much she can eat, she's so tiny!
Alaise is 1 week old. It's pretty unreal. As I watch her sleep next to me (although, it took 2 hours of trying to figure out whether she wanted more food or what it was she wanted!), I can't believe she's been mine for a whole week. My husband, who has been absolutely wonderful through this whole experience, asked me today, "How's motherhood?
I think motherhood hasn't really hit me yet. I feed her and take care of her, but to be 100% honest, I haven't had the "How did I live without you?" or "I've been waiting for you my whole life!" kind of emotion that others say they feel. I expected to be a changed/different person, but I'm still me, and I don't feel any different, except for the love for this little person. Maybe things just haven't hit me yet? I dunno.
Thursday October 22, 2009, Kris, my parents and I all woke up bright and early at 4:30am. Holy Crap, we're having a baby today!! The hospital bags were packed, but I hadn't gotten much sleep due to my cough that I have had for a week and a half. But I didn't really have a choice - I got out of bed, doubled checked the hospital bag yet again, ate two bowls of cereal - Honey Nut Cheerios and Frosted Mini Wheats. Got dressed in the only pants that fit me - my yoga pants, and a long sleeved t-shirt that could barely contain my belly any more. But I figured I just had to make it to the hosp
